A Circle's Only Strength is the Links That Connect It.

...there are people who are in their circle just to feel like a part of something. Most times it is some kind of validation that they are looking for. Well I have learned first hand what it is to be a part of one; where you will not find validation, but you will find truth you won't find pity, but you will find support. Being a part of a circle is more then just being present. Its letting yourself be open, uncovered, and unselfish.

I built a wall of protection based on the life I lead.That kept me from getting to close to a circle for to long. When I found myself in the world of  Mr. L.I.E and the P.O.S. family. I  found out how selfish I had become from that protection. I use to think it was the big dramatic things that could be the most damaging and hurtful. When really its  the smaller details that can hurt and do the most damage.

It is easy to think about yourself in every situation that happens. How will any of it affect you whether it be good, bad, happy or sad. Our first reaction is to think about ourselves and what we want and how we are going to end up on the other side.  When I began to get close to this family  I thought I was opening up to them. What I didn't realize was how thick and how tall my wall of protection had become. In every situation especially  my personal fuck ups I over looked others feelings, how they may have been hurt, and the disappointment. Only thinking about my own shame, self pity, and foolishness. Upset about what I lost or what I wanted to happen. It took this special group of people to really show me what I was to blind to see.

As my experience continues with the P.O.S. family so does my appreciation and love for them. I don't need validation. I know who I am, but I always need the truth. I don't need the pity party. I am feeling great about myself and I keep that in check. But I love my support.
With out breaking down that wall I wouldn't  have  understood the value in being compassionate and understanding beyond my own personal views. That's the kind of circle I have. As we learn  individually we grow together. As we each shine in our own life's we encourage each other to shine theirs.

A circle's only strength is the links that connect it....

This is Chappell Love and im Out.